OK - Time for a non-selfindulgent post, Phuckit

I find it wierd that I have yet to have anywhere near a meaningful conversation about what is going on over there in Southeast Asia/India/where ever... It's breaking my heart on that scale where the only logical response is to almost ignore it. I have a long history, as I suspect do a lot of people of just distancing myslef from far away disaster on that scale. Obviously, I've never seen it on this scale before. They say 110,000 people so far, I can't but think that this number will double again soon, AND I can't help but think of the effects when doing even the simplist six degree calculations.

I have started to notice and hear more "my family is ok...", and "my friend was on the other side..." conversations in and around the city...

Having watched death unfold in front of my own eyes once has given me a perspective I did not have four years ago, but realy nothing more than perhaps a slight glimmer of empathy. I cannot begin to imagine what it must be like to have lost everyone, everthing and everything you've ever known to a silent an unexpected ripple in the sea.

Once again, we sit here, reading the statistics, marveling over the stories over how very few animals have been found dead, or how the earths axis was shook, or that there was a three micro second variance in the earths travels around the sun, or something like that.

Huge chunks of people are dead, just plain old dead. I'm completely helpless to do anything... anything except hope that the people swept out to sea, or squished under falling rubble, or trapped helplessly as the water rose around them, that they had some personal belief that gave them comfort... That their friends and family left behind have some internal mechanism, some kind of faith that helps them send their loved ones off to a better place.

I agree with most of my friends, this God stuff can be nasty business at times. At times like these, you just got to thank God that a whole bunch of people in this world have this faith built into their lives, otherwise this unfathomable pain thats in the air right now would be even more unimaginably horrible to witness.

Hundreds of thousands of people, sniffed out in mere minutes... damn.